THE DAY BEFORE YOU

"You'll always go back to the one you love."

 

This is not quite applicable to everyone else in the field of love. It goes like, one day, you are so in love, and the next day, you just don't know.

 

----

 

It was quite a shock for me. What has happened is way far from what I had expected. I never thought he could actually cheat. Darrrrn. What's happening to the world? It's full of lies. Full of heartaches and pain.

 

Ok, so here it goes.

 

Our relationship, though on the rocks, is ACTUALLY flowing smoothly. Even if we don't see each other that much, COMMUNICATION is CONSTANT.

 

"So far, yet so near."

 

September is the greatest month of our year. We had the chance to spend nights and days together, filling up the times that we didn't see each other for so long. He's the first guy to actually meet my closest friends. The first one that I have introduced to my brother, got close to him and had my brother's approval. The first guy that I had held hands in puclic with. The person that I have given my necklace to. Oh that necklace. Crap. How can I get that back?

 

He's the only guy that I have shared everything with.

 

We had so much love under our sleeves. Moments where destiny is proven to be existing. Soulmate. Pure love.

 

It was then October, when we have counted "just days" since we last saw each other. Maybe it's because of the intense feeling of missing someone, that's why we have decided to have a weekend together again.

 

He met my bestfriends and he was graded A+. They told me that he really loves me because he exerts so much effort just to be with me. Well, yes, that's true. He's one of a kind. He takes care of me, sacrifices much just to be with me. Maybe I got lucky. Those are just some of the reasons that makes me love him more.

 

This is it. He's the one. I've been praying to God and we have been praying together. We even had an imaginary baby called Timothy. A cute, lovely and chubby baby. Timothy signifies our relationship. We have been taking care of our baby since we started our relationship "officially".

 

Our anniversary came and we didn't have the chance to celebrate it on the exact date. We've decided to just have a date on our "off duty" so we can spend our one year together.

 

He's late. As usual. That's the day that I have actually felt different. There's something wrong. That feeling that something bad is going to happen. That day was quite far from the usual days we have spent together. That strange feeling of wanting to break up on him. To leave him because I don't understand myself that time - but I love him, so I won't.

 

I just washed those thoughts away because we're going to attend a mass. He's actually the first guy that I have taken to my favorite church and walked him to the place where my heart was healed. The one that I actually saw my future with. He's still wearing my necklace that day.

 

We had a lunch date and just walked our way to different destinations, window shopping, mall hopping, taking the train and walking our way through places - hand in hand. How sweet is that? He made me feel that I'm the most beautiful girl in the world, that is being loved by a good man.

A good man who is responsible enough to take care of me. *SIGH*


I just love this day. :')
 

Long Distance

REPOSTED FROM MY OTHER BLOG.

 

Time actually flies so fast. I just can't understand why whenever we feel so happy, the clock speeds like 200 kilometers per hour. The feeling of euphoria and the excitement of a magical moment, suddenly turns every second into a Ferrari ride, unable to slow down in a "Between Life and Death" race.

Sigh. How I wish I could stop the clock's hands and just be with him forever.

Long distance relationships. Yes. Risky, atypical, scary, difficult, stressful, yet adventurous and challenging. You'll never understand how and why these happen, unless you, yourself will experience one.

How do people, who live miles apart, fall in love with each other? I don't know... MAGIC?

There are lots of reasons why persons end up in a far far away love affair. Demand of work, moving out, finding love at a different place, coincidence, but the most, DESTINY.

I, myself is a victim of the undefined word, LOVE. I never thought of falling for someone distant, but not that quite far from where I actually live. We're still in the same country, but in a different place.

We never actually met at first. We just communicate - endless talks, chats, texts, exchanging pictures, and facebook. We never skyped, cause he's not into it. He's kind of shy, and he doesn't know how to act in front of a live camera.

Everything seemed so vague. The first question that actually popped into my mind is, HOW CAN YOU LOVE A PERSON YOU HAVEN'T MET? I heard him breathe, slow, deep, sighing. I moved the phone closer to my ear, it's as if, I am near him, resting my head on his chest, waiting for him to talk.

"Can I ask you something?" he said.

"What is it?" I uttered.

"Do you love God?" he whispered.

"I do." I said.

"Have you met Him?" he asked.

"No, not yet." I answered.

There was a long pause after that. I heard him cleared his throat, and finally, he said, "We love God, even if we haven't met Him, and I do believe, that loving a person is not that far from loving Him. Love is not just about meeting the person before their eyes. Love is about believing; trusting. When I felt that feeling for you, I know, I'm in love. And distance can't make me love you less."

Hearing that, I cried. I can't explain why. I don't actually know if I'm happy to hear that, or still can't believe that the person I'm talking to, is really serious about it. We've talked for hours. and finally, I began to open myself up, and let the worries fly, wherever fate will take them.

He told me that, everything is rest assured, there's nothing to worry about. He's not into a picture perfect relationship, he's into a serious and a REAL one. All he's asking, is TRUST.

"As long as we see the same sky, witness one sunrise and sunset, followed by the same moon each night, we will still survive."

We never lost each other, until we've decided to meet. That shaky feeling when you first see the person you love. That moment when your heart wants to jump out of your chest. That awkward, but hypnotizing feeling, that actually makes you want to stay or just runaway. Cold, sweaty hands, and trembling knees that are about to break, stuttering speech and weak balance that makes you want to collapse, not sure if he'll leave or stay. Haha. So funny.

When you finally get through those feelings, you'll see. Waiting is definitely worthy.

In time, you'll realize, Love has no boundaries.

You'll just constantly miss each other, until you meet again.

Counting days, longing days, I should say, is one of the hardest part.

Sigh...

- emptycan